Am I Alright In The Head?

Im really sorry that this happened. I bet it was a combination of stress and possibly lack of sleep. You are not the only one who has thoughts like these however. Many people in the world fall to the same problem and do things that they regret later on. It is not good that you hurt yourself and that your thoughts were bloody. I trust that you are a completely normal person who just snapped in a moment of stress but you do need to talk to a councilor. This doesn't me that you are crazy. You just dont want this to happen again and you can be sure that with someone to talk to it wont. The councilor can also help you relieve pent up feelings about your job and other aspects of life. Much of the population in the US have a councilor no a days. I really hope this helps.